Thursday, July 31, 2008

今日,我病了.

更嚴重的是傷風菌入了喉龐,我差一點就不能說話或呼吸

我突然間想起我要一個女朋友的原因

如果「她」在我身邊,她一定會打給我哄我

之後來我屋企照顧我,煮點東西給我吃

只可惜,這一切一切都是我一箱情願的夢

"Man, I am gonna really miss that voice!"

近排,我喜歡聽我朋友網誌上的一首歌: Damien Rice - 9 Crimes

可能歌詞太應境吧 (粗字)

Lift me out with the waste, this is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place, to be thinking of you
It's the wrong time, for somebody new
It's a small crime, and I've got no excuse

And is that alright, yeah?

I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright, yeah?
If you don't shoot then how am I suppose to hold it
Is that alright, yeah?
I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright, is that alright with you?

Lift me out with the waste, this is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place, to be cheating on you
It's the wrong time, she's pulling me through
It's a small crime, and I've got no excuse

And is that alright, yeah?

I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright, yeah?
If you don't shoot then how am I suppose to hold it
Is that alright, yeah?
I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright, is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright? Is that alright? Is that alright with you? Nope

有兩個版本:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ofAkFdFUtsI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U4FPcb6WkK0

強烈推介聽Warcraft版,因為它最後的那一句很重要:

Love is a CRIME,
whose Beginning is a Glance
And Whose Ending is Eternity


I don't think anyone will disagree with this right?

Saturday, July 19, 2008

最近去看了某位友人的BLOG,原來她都散了! 不過有一個POST她寫得好好所以我借過來說說自己的感受:

在二零零八年五月七日,溫小姐的BLOG有以下的POST:

死因不明?且怕是我一直沒有留心。

就當是你不誠實,就當是我不足,就當電影情節太寫實,就當是遺失公仔的錯,就當是工作壓力,就當是成長必經,就當是老人家的病,就當是時間的不對,就當是我不懂,就當是你不負責任,就當是兩種語言不能溝通,就當我是水性楊花,就當我是人格分裂,就當你不明白不了解,就當你已經心神領會,就當中間誤會太多,就當是你懶,就當是我要求高,就當電影喻意太多,就當我太倔強,就當你太多遷就,就當我野蠻,就當是音樂口味不同,就當你身子弱,就當是氫氣的特性,就當是我沒有好好把握,就當是我不肯明白,就當是他教壞人,就當我妒忌,就當你有狂燥症,就當我不慬為你著想,就當你已經沒有感覺,就當我不比魚缸吸引,就當我不能給你睡眠的高潮,就當我太小朋友,就當我太依賴,就當你太自私,就當你為我好,就當你太小心翼翼,就當你太為我著想,就當你突然徹悟,就當這是罪,就當我後知後覺,就當你是中七我是中五,就當我笑得太假,就當你是內檢,就當你有太多枷鎖,就當我不體諒,就當我不長進,就當我太好勝,就當是她太好看,就當是我太扁平,就當是他話說太動聽,就當是你迷失,就當我不是明燈,就當是你的心魔,就當是世俗眼光,就當我沒有耐性,就當我錯過機會,就當是電話接收太差,就當是天氣太不穩定,就當我畏光,就當香港處於亞熱帶,就當你怕熱,就當我的房間太焗促,就當我的睡眠質素差,就當是玫瑰太軟弱無能,就當北風太大,就當我驕生慣養,就當我愛哭,就當我小看了你,就當我太想照顧你,就當你從不用我照顧,就當我困住了你,就當你愛自由,就當你太忠肝義膽,就當你不慬溫柔,就當你不慬反擊,就當我火氣大,就當我太衝動,就當我太慬得後悔,就當我怕鬼,就當我怕寂寞,就當你是水泡,就當我太幼稚,就當你太慬得偽裝,就當你不慬浪漫,就當因為二人從不吵嘴,就當我的邏輯欠佳,就當你太現實,就當是你逃避,就當我不肯接受現實,就當你累了,就當我再不吸引了,就當再沒有衝擊,就當哭得太多,就當眼淚不值錢,就當你已經厭倦,就當你不需要我,就當我太需要你,就當你需要另一個她,就當你已經愛上別人,就當你已經變了另一個人,就當你永遠不會回來,就當你已經不存在,就當你已經死了,就當我已勒斃了你,就當你已槍殺了我,就當沒有事發生過,就當我就當你就當我就當你就當我就當你。


不過最重要的是她講的之後那一句!

「理由重要嗎?說穿了,還不是藉口。
隨便挑上幾項,假如感覺良好的話,用力相信就是了。」


說到這裏我就想起她拒絕我的理由:

2008/7/7 下午 10:25:16 アイリス說:
你根本就唔係鍾意一個女仔而鍾意, 而係為咗有女朋友而要女朋友
我想反駁她.我真係好鍾意她!那麼她為何要和我去行街睇戲食飯?她可以一次又一次拒絕我的要求

我鍾意她不是因為她樣或者職業,而是她那一顆不計較我的心

難度這一切是我一廂情願的夢嗎?還是她剛剛想到的“下台諧”?

不過這一切都不再重要,因為這一切一切都已成定局!

我唯一可以說的是:多謝你

因為你,我學會打扮(因為我每一次都盡量去打扮好去見你)

因為你,我學會對女仔好(因為你給機會我去練習)

因為你,我擁有希望(是你鼓勵我不好放棄)

到最後因為你,我學會獨立

不過這一切一切都會失去了!我不會是我了!

在此,我只能祝福你能夠和你男朋友幸福地生活下去!

Have you heard of the fairy tales of Razgriz?

The Demon soars through Dark Skies
Fear trails its shadows beneath
Until Men united wield a Hollow Sabre
In Final Reckoning, the beast is slain!







Wednesday, July 02, 2008

10 years Love Report

(I know she won't come to my blog and see my posts again, so I am going to write all I could here)

Unknown: Whooa - Congrtulations, Alan
Alan: What, this is the end, then...
Unknown: Yes, It is.
Alan: This is my 9th Consecutive Loss in 10 years!
Unknown: Yea. Say what did you do tonight to celebrate this 9th Loss?
Alan: I got two bottles of "nite" tonight and go to Victoria Park at Causeway Bay to drink. After all, this is the place where I lost my 9th girl. It has its memories as the place of lust, don't you agree?
Unknown: Yea.
Alan: How many girls did I love, Let's make a count and comments:

Sophie Biclava
Whoa, I nearly can't even remember her name now. I started to date her at 12. This is because all my friends are in love with others so I think it would be easy to get a chick, but I don't think it's that easy. In that end, it turns out pretty rough. But she gave me a good comment, she told me "Go find your own kind." That's why I come back here and find another one.

Jessica Chan
The next girl that I love. She isn't bad nor good. She is rough though and she looks fat but she is okay. You know, I tend to label the girls that I love is that they don't mind about others. And that's where it comes worse. I never thought about other people's feelings. More importantly, I was blind as she has a boyfriend! In the end, I have to abandon her.

Michelle Ma
The girl after Jessica. She was strong, kind. She was the kind of, you know, very smart girl. Of course, I have to be smart too. Every year, she couldn't be first in English, you know why? Yea, I took it off her. That's why. She was the house captain for Green house, and lost to us by 0.5 points. Oh my god. But yea, she is good. Reason of abandoning: Has boyfriend!

Unknown: Why don't you look before you pick?
Alan: Oh sorry, I only thought that they will be kind to me though!
Unknown: (In your dreams)
Alan: Let's continue to count

Fiona (Can't remember her last name)
I lost her because "Truth or dare". I hate this game because I am a very honest person. SHe don't looks too good. .... Don't

Karmen Ng
I shoulda have got her but I lost her because she can't go through her own honesty. She isn't looks too good, but she is too greedy. She wants money and forgets everything else. She could betray her friends for money. Luckily, I didn't get her though. She knows this part of herself very well, and she didn't want to cheat me, so she abandon me.

Unknown: Who else after her? Nobody is nice!
Alan: I know but they are getting much better.

Mandy Lai
Perhaps, she is too much older for me. She is in BAEPC now and she is graduating this year.

Jessica Lam
Well well well. Another Jessica, how nice. Why do I choose her? Personal reasons. Perhaps, my love will know once she choses me. Nah, that will only happens in another life. Well, I thought she will not care about my appearance and thought about the inside too. but this is the biggest mistake I make. Not caring for others, she likes a Japanese handsome guy, not me. So she abbandon me

Iris Wong (Really, I hope she is not seeing this right now)
Reason to choose her: She is the only girl that hangs out with me. And everytime I hangs out with her she gave me hope. I always thought to myself "It's all over, man. I should get real. There will be no girl on this earth that would love you anymore." But she would always come in and says, "Alan, don't give up. There's still hope." I thought this "hope" was her. But in the end, i've place too much gambit on her though. I have did all I could. Afterall, this is what I could do now. To me, she was my last Bastion of hope. The one that would give me the strength to support this. But now I don't think so. My boss explains the reasons: 1) She wouldn't want to pickup someone else's "trash". She would be badmouthed if do so and I couldn't supress all the criticism. I know he tries to calm me down but he didn't know that how much this is for me.......

Unknown: So this concludes your 10 years love report!
Alan: Yea. To all the girls that I have love, I really hope that you would find the one you really love. But me, I am just a loser here. I have lost, this battlefield and I am not being able to find another one anymore! So I really wish you guys have a brighter future. I think this is one of the verse that I should said. For me, my destiny awaits me in the future.
AWACS THUNDERHEAD: This is AWACS, callsign Thunderhead. Galm 1, Maintain your current course.
.......
AWACS THUNDERHEAD: Enemy aircraft detected close to Area B7R at high speed. There's no time to change course, eliminate all resistance and breakthrough.
Sorcerer 1: Sorcerer 1 to all units. Apply FULL thrust. DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT GOING BACK!
Alan: This is not becoming "You Know You Play Too Much Ace Combat When..." post, right?

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

ごぬ!ごぬ!ごぬ!ごぬ!

This blog is dedicated for Iris

ごぬなさい, 私はある粗いメッセージを今日送れば残念である
私は次映像を使用して私を、許すことができることを望む
私は残念言い、あなたの未来によく望むことを望む!

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